Love and Ramayana
Eleven days ago, I finally got my hands on the first four books of The Ramayana by Ashok Banker. I started to read the Prince of Ayodhya and had to stay uptil 2am finishing it, earning the ire of all members of the family. Then I had to sleep and wait for the weekend to begin The Seige of Mithila owing to my commitment to my marriage and family! My eyes couldnt take in the words fast enough to get to The Demons of Chitrakoot. Then it was time for me to stop all the reading and go on an amazing "vacation" to get back to my self. I willed myself to write this post before I finish reading The Armies of Hanuman as I want to save some bit to relish while awaiting the last few volumes. Ashok, if you are reading this, let me tell you that I LOVE your style and speed. It was so fast-paced. And guess what, after reading about Rama doing his Sandhyavandan, my son has become more regular with it!! He feels so connected with a character like Rama who wears Indian clothes, does Indian stuff and eats Indian food. No pizza and coke, no jeans and Tees but with all the "cool" stuff like in the Lord of the Rings or even Harry Potter, couldnt have it better! And what a story, as old as time and yet as relevant today as it was thousands of years ago.
The Ramayana has always symbolized Love in all its shades to me. It was intriguing to read a narrative where there is absolutely no overt expression of "love" but is simply experienced as a life fully expressed and lived at every turn of the page. The fantasia of an epic that has created more connections in my brain than anything else made me look within to see the enthusiasm and joy welling up.
To top this I was in an amazing experience of a "training"(?) and just let the love flow through and out of me. I can just summarise that experience with language that cannot truly convey everything but here I go: Once there was a heart (am giving you a graphic representation as words are sort of hard to come by to explain!) and around the age of 5, I put it in a box. As the years rolled by, I made this box bigger by letting in all the situations and people in along with the lessons and knowledge they brought in. This included books, music and all my various interests and hobbies. Then, a decade ago I did the Art of Living course and during one of the processes, this box vanished on me. It was beautiful, I looked beautiful too after that course and soon, the box came right back with the course inside. Meeting with the Guru, being in the presence of truth (satsangh), meditating, giving of myself to a friend or my child or even doing dishes (rarely though!), the box would vanish and the heart would flow. This Friday, that box vanished after an intense expereince of letting go that went on for more than 5 hours.
Ra (light) m (within me) had vanquished Ravana (the ego- the box). It is now Deepavali. Love.
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